9 10 2012 Supplemental Cross Roads

Howdy yall! Howdy indeed!!! Well I can tell ya that my Spirits are riding high. My Energy levels could be better.

I did not sleep well last night. Why? Yes, to the point: I have been thinking too much. Dangerous indeed!!! So I post at this time a little tired, yet not foggy at all. I am thinking and wondering. I keep asking myself why? Yes, the big three letter word that can mean so much and leave a lot of room for interpretation.

Confused? Right, me too. I have been thinking what is my role? What is my role here. I am no fearless leader, not here. Yes, I do have a leadership role at my job and I have been a leader in some other areas. I always sorta kinda saw myself as a reporter in some way or fashion here. This blog was just a tool to report and document my journey through ZC and now the 5BD among other things.



So, here I am. I was already to head into a direction that at the start and I  had no idea where this is going to end up. OK, I am more confused than ever. If only I were retired. Now that would give me all the time in the world to really work on something worth putting out there for "US". I guess at the end of the day I am afraid that because of time constraints I will not be able to put together something worth putting together.

Now that I have totally CONFUSED everyone.............

Dont worry yall I am just being human............

Look-it: I dont like doing things "half ass"....... OK,sorry for the profanity. This is a "PG" blog dont ya know?  But I get a little frustrated and worried about this place. I keep thinking to myself "What is this place anyway?" Well, if you ask me: I want this place to be a source of information. I dont want it to be about me. I have ideas, I have plans, but I just cant seem to put them together where they will be useful for "US". I want to section this place into areas of useful information and guides. I dont mind sharing my experiences with all and any that care to know. Yet sometimes I wish I could share........ share....... well I dont want to call it a "burden" because it is not. I guess share the responsibility? Is that a good way of saying it? I dont know.

No I dont plan on giving up. I dont plan on shutting down. I just want something or someone to I guess for lack of a better word "help" me with this venture. I know that is not fair. Why? Because I am the one who started all this and I should be the one to carry the torch or to relinquish it.

Hey yall I just needed to get this off my chest. I am here. I plan to stay here or you know with new place one of these days. For now I will continue with the plan. Jeez I have a plan? I guess. HA!!!

OK now for something really WEIRD!! Dont ask me why, but I keep thinking of that movie "The 13th Warrior" I keep thinking of that saying or prayer or creed or whatever it is called that the dying Viking King said as he stood before the last battle started:


Lo, there do I see my Father..
Lo, there do I see my Mother
And my Sisters and my Brothers..
Lo, there do I see the line
Of my people back to the beginning..
They do bid me to take my place among them..
In the Halls of Valhalla,
Where the Brave may live forever.


Dont ask why this is on my mind, because I do not know. All I do know is that it gives me some kind of comfort. Strange................... right?

Anyhow things for the most part are fine. I am planing for today to be the start of some changes in my life. Positive changes in the way I live my "Home life", my "Spiritual life" and the overall way I prioritize my time. I just have this urge to get things done right and on time. I just cant explain the pull.

Have a Healthy Day my Friends and Family. Journeys sometimes start before you plan on them starting. Sometimes Journeys have a way of taking control and you can only follow and make the best choices possible. Keep On, Keeping On and Always Battle On!!!


Warriors Code

Cheers,

Dave

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